“In New York, Concrete jungle where dreams are made of,
Theres nothing you can’t do, Now you’re in New York,
these streets will make you feel brand new, big lights will inspire you,
lets here it for New York, New York, New York” from a South African perspective chasing her dream with a vengeance these lyrics hit home harder that any song has ever done! I would even go so far as to admit that this song evokes so much from within i find myself teary eyed every time Miss Alicia blows those heart wrenching lyrics.

I did not come here to be a super star i came here to find him (HipHop), to find my purpose and defy the odds stacked against a South African siSTAR wanting more than life back home could give me. i ALWAYS ask myself this “if you died tomorrow what did you leave behind?

As of today will document my journey bring you all the interesting things going on in my world from the music to the food to the people to everything that is New York!!

THIS WILL INCLUDE PICS!!

ENJOY THE RIDE

HERstory Brewing!!!

So many women contiously tell me  that my words move and inspire them, so with God’s grace i will regularly focus on sprawling my wall with positive energy through beautifully painted words and verbs.

I am not a therapist, i don’t hold any degrees in sociology, psychology or human behavior, but i do have one strength: i write from past experiences. I am not going to waste a beautiful moment dissecting the technicalities of the human psyche, instead engage from one sister to another.
Who better to try and unearth the Queen within from a woman who survived many challenges most of you are not even aware of; going from a confused insecure soul to a Queen.
It’s my firm believe that when encouragement and inspiration comes from a place of sincerity from a spirit that has felt the pain insecurities and challenges woman face it is passed on as a gift and not a lecture of words droning and being forced upon you.
I won’t have all the answers, because i too am challenged regularly to not let go of my crown.
If a fellow sister steps to my King and disrespects me i almost let go of my royalty; when in my head i want to slap her, but i always say out aloud “Straighten your crown and go forth Queen”, when i am looked at strangely cause i refuse to adhere to society’s perception of beautiful i almost let go of my crown again, nearly entertaining their ignorance

Having said all that you don’t wake up and know that you are a Queen, when you are constantly challenged, the water to your immaculate reflection becomes murky, soiled with negativity.

So as of now i hope that my blog will encourage motivate and inspire woman.
I’m still deciding if it should be a daily or weekly blog, depending on if the sisters feel what I’m saying or writing. IT’S ON YOU

I HOPE STEP INTO YOUR QUEENDOMNESS CONTRIBUTES TO YOUR HAPPINESS


LOVE AND LIGHT

Herstory - brewing slowly

Due to so much requests for me to have a blog, I thought I will start with a blog on here.

Woke up this morning with a stronger sense of self and more determination to outdo myself.

After finally getting to experience the Brooklyn hip hop festival and meeting many well known artists something is still missing, am I searching for something that no longer exists or has the dilution of hip hop made me bitter? I miss the golden era of hip hop so badly it hurts, I had to let him (hip hop) go and allow for change. Technology has made it easier for us to communicate and share the culture but it has made us lazy.
I want him back so badly, so I guess I should stop complaining and be the Sister that will stick to her guns and try my damn hardest to capture the essence of old skool in my music…

I know South Africa’s eyes are on me with every step I take over here and the support has been amazing when I’m homesick I read all the emails you guys send me telling me I inspire you I have a quick cry I haven’t even dropped an album but I get more love than most artist who are working on their second album, its not because I’m lucky its because I was blessed with a gift and how i receive and utilize it makes the difference.

I have had the opportunity to meet some amazing people that have such a great impact on my life right now, they know who they are so I wont name drop that I feel I owe it to them and myself to do my best.

My highlights since I been here was contributing a chapter about South African women in Hip Hop thanks to Martha Diaz and the Hip hop Association the book called Women so Bold so Fresh, Performing at The Synch Chronicles as well as Lyricist Lounge, a 5 page feature in an Italian magazine (MAG), participating on the topic of race in South Africa on Wbai radio, being interviewed by Miss Bless Roxwell- she ‘s so Fresh Blog, working on a possible online called the booth(where we interview producers) and currently formulating my own show.

I keep saying I’m chasing my dreams but I sat and thought about it, I’m already living it, its a crazy tearful heart sore journey of tears, of joy and sadness but there needs to be balance.
I sacrificed so much to be here, I can’t pop in at my dad’s if I need a pick me up, my baby sister and I can’t go shopping and i cant have the tasty meals my ex roomie made or laugh with my best friends over cocktails but what I do know is that i inspire many to push and keep pushing.
To my peeps all over the world, I will be honest I was never accepted in Cape Town, because I was made to feel that I wasn’t good enough, i wanted to be signed so badly peeps never returned emails and telephone calls and I was just “dissed” and I reached a point where I said I can’t let this kill my dreams.
I gave up a great job, nice apartment and comfort and jumped on a plane HERE I AM…the wheels have turned now producers wants to work with me, people in cape town want to sign me and the haters the are silent whenever they see i have achieved yet again..
i have the makings of a beautiful book which is still being written and its going to be awesome.

My main purpose is to inspire and compete with myself.

I guess the bottom line is I DON’T FIT IN CAUSE I WAS MADE TO STAND OUT!!!

Follow me on this beautiful journey called MUSIC.


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